Monday, January 18, 2010

How to FLY, Day 6 - Mayday! Mayday!

Okay, so I should have called this blog post "How to Crash and Burn." Let me first start by telling you that these past 2 weeks have been the first time in two and a half years that I have worked all 5 work week days in the office. While I love my new job, my "work from home in my sweats while grocery shopping on my lunch break and folding laundry while making calls" is sorely missed. It's been more than a challenge for me to try to get everything done in my precious few hours before bed at night or before work in the morning. All of the laundry, dishes and messes have started to pile up along with the stress and make me one grumpy momma.

Now I must admit that I have not followed the baby steps as I should have. On Monday (day 6), after my revelation that my family should have kicked me out for my terrible rants over the past weekend, I looked at my missed baby step on day 5. I am not sure how the Flylady knew that I would lose my shit on day 5, but she did. She even had some advice on how to ease the tension I would feel on this day, but I chose to ignore her. Had I listened, my day might have gone much differently. Her day 5 baby step reads, "Are you hearing any of those nagging negative voices popping into your head? I want you to take a piece of paper and write down what you hear then I want you to turn those ugly words around and say something nice to yourself to negate the ugly words that they said." Instead of relying on myself to say nice things when I needed, I expected my family to - except I never told them that. I guess I just assumed they would know that I needed some support the way a mom and wife always knows. But alas, life is not that easy. Luckily, I am smart enough to recognize my mistakes and beg my husband for forgiveness. I also explained to him that I may need a little extra "room" in the next couple weeks and if he could bite his tongue and offer a hug instead of giving it back to me, it would be most helpful.

Day 6 was much better after that. Sometimes it just takes a conscious decision to be happier and let go of the small stuff. I even took my bedtime routine to the next level and enjoyed a nice relaxing bubble bath, something I haven't done in over a year. Day 6 was also the first time I have worked out a long time which helped those endorphins work their magic on my mood.

What will day 7 have in store? Who knows. But I am finally buying into to the whole baby steps thing - one day at a time, 15 minutes at a time - however you choose to look at it.

1 comment:

  1. good for you! I only work 4 days in the office and totally understand your stress with laundry, dishes, etc not getting done. I am glad you took the time for yourself to have a nice buble bath, step back and let the negativity go. I wish you luck!